Monday, February 20, 2012

Imprisoned by Freedom: Why it Helps to Have Structure in Your Practice


When I was in art school I was surrounded by some extremely creative and talented individuals who possessed good vision, good intentions, and good esthetic sensibilities. However, many of us resented having to learn any kind of technique or to apply any sort of discipline to our painting, drawing, writing, photography, music or sculpture. To us it seemed antithetical to the creative process--after all, art in our view was meant to be FREE;  untamed, wild, spontaneous, open, and unencumbered.
As a result of our ideas of what it meant to be an artist, many of us often struggled tremendously when it came time to produce a piece of work for an assignment or group event. Some complained of feeling too restricted by the assignment, the deadline, the venue, the other students, etc. There was always some reason why we couldn’t or shouldn’t be expected to produce our Art under such narrow and restrictive parameters. 
In the end many of us would be late producing the project, some of us just wouldn’t do it at all and a few of us ended up with a mediocre version of what we were truly capable of. But those of us who could be systematic, consistent and precise with our creativity really flourished, both as students and as artists. 
Many people come to meditation practice because they want to be released from the habitual thought patterns that bring about a lot of unhappiness in their lives. They understand that in a very real sense, we live as if we’re prisoners of our narrow perceptions of who and what we are. So eventually (and usually after a great deal of frustration) we’re inspired to connect to something deeper, more expansive, and more enduring than what we’ve been taught defines who we are. 
Ironically, what often causes people to get in their own way is our cultural tendency as Americans to grasp at our concepts of what it means to be free or independent--that is, to do it our way, to steer clear of any kind of spiritual structure or tradition, to pick and choose what we like from various spiritual practices in the hopes that the hodgepodge of ingredients we accumulate along the way just might be potent enough to help us reconnect to our inherently complete and perfect state. 
Freedom can be the worst kind of prison if we attach to our ideas about what its supposed to mean. Our small, limited concepts of freedom can end up being the very shackles that hold us back from freedom in its widest, truest sense; the freedom from suffering and the thought patterns that contribute to our suffering. 
To be truly free means to let go of our ideas of what it means to be free. The best kind of freedom can be found within a structure that whittles things down, limits the choices a bit, and enables us to walk straight ahead with crispness and clarity.
A practice without any kind of regularity or specificity is just laziness masquerading as openness. An approach to practice that eschews any kind of structure, consistency, and discipline is not going to be as effective as a practice that embraces some kind of structure, consistency, and discipline. 
I’n not calling for rigidity or dogma, just accountability and a willingness to commit to something in particular for some length of time.
Just as all of us in art school had to eventually buckle down and learn the technical side of our crafts in order to produce works that transcended those techniques, all of us on a spiritual path need to apply some discipline and direction in order for our practice to be more whollistically integrated into the rest of our lives. When we do this, we can more clearly see what is going on around us, what our role in the situation is, and how to respond in the most appropriate and compassionate way.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Buddhist Prayer for Peace



I was asked to read a "Buddhist Prayer" for the third year in a row for the Annual Interreligious Prayer Service for Justice and Peace. Last year I read the Metta Sutta and the year before I read another short prayer that was given to me at the last minute.


This time around I decided to take a stab at writing my own Buddhist Prayer for Peace since Buddhists aren't exactly stocked with a whole lot of prayers to choose from as are Christians, Jews, Muslims, and others. 


As I see it, when we pray as Buddhists we aren't petitioning some separate entity to intervene in human affairs. Rather, we're clarifying and verbalizing an intention with the understanding that the law of interdependence is always at work, so our words and intentions and actions will reverberate in ways both strong and subtle.


This is the prayer I wrote:



Buddhist Prayer for Peace.


May all beings everywhere 
Awaken to the inherent goodness
That dwells within themselves and all others.
May we all attain a peaceful, even nature
Unencumbered by untamed thoughts and endless desires
Unswayed by conditions, concepts, and appearances.
May all beings dispel greed, anger, hatred, and jealousy
And cultivate a wise and open heart
Witnessing the goodness in everyone and every thing
Seeing that all beings are one and share the same true nature.
May these words reach every realm 
All the ends of this Earth
From the darkest caverns to the highest plains
Through the muck of human suffering
And the chaos of endless wanting.
May all those who suffer find comfort and calm 
And attain true and lasting peace
Finding clarity in the midst of confusion
And grace within groundlessness.

May everyone who hears these words be able 
to live safely, to see clearly, to speak wisely
and to practice kindness and compassion 
towards themselves and all others.
As the waters fill the rivers that connect all the oceans
May everyone flow with each other and all living beings
with ease and with safety
with sanity and well being.
May no obstacles befall you
and may harm never reach you.
- by Rev. Lawrence Dō’an Grecco

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Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Ordained, at Last

For several years now I've wanted to ordain as a priest or monk for reasons which initially weren't all that clear to me. All I knew is that something was clearly pulling me to do this so it felt like it was just a matter of when and not if it would happen. At my age the idea of being a resident in some Zen monastery for an extended length of time just wasn't realistic. And while New York City has several teachers whom I admire very much, none of them resonated deeply enough with me to want to follow them exclusively, nor was there any clear ordination track for someone like me who wishes to serve in a formal role without having to wait ten years or more to get there. 
Time’s a wastin’ and there are many people to help in this world.
Buddhists in the West don’t have the same ordination options that Christians have, so many people who have the “calling” to be a clergy person in this country find themselves at a loss about what to do.
In 2009 I became acquainted with Paul Yuanzhi Lynch, the founder and guiding teacher of the Five Mountain Zen Order. He lives on the other side of the country (California) so in my mind the distance between us ruled him out as a potential teacher. Having corresponded with him via email and on the phone many times, I found him to be an incredibly knowledgeable, generous, down to earth, funny, compassionate and loving man who clearly and sincerely just wants to help people. That’s it. He often vocalized and demonstrated his desire to cut through the bullshit found in many large Zen organizations and I admired him greatly for that. 
In 2010 when I was checking out the Taego Order and decided to sign up for their seminary program and eventually ordain with them, I checked with Paul first. Sure enough he knew a great deal about the Taego people and was happy to share with me what he knew at that point, which was mostly positive. And instead of trying to talk me into joining his College of Zen Buddhist Studies, he simply supported me and what I was choosing to do without even a semblance of envy or manipulation. He’s a real a mensch.
After almost a year of training and study I discovered some disturbing things about the Taego order and after a lot of careful consideration I decided to pull out of their program. Once again Paul was there as a friend to listen and empathize.
At this point I decided to do koan interviews with him via skype once a week and it’s been the most enriching experiences of my dharma life. He spends heaps more time with me than any local teacher would ever offer me as he does with several other students from all over the world. He never asks for anything in return and always emphasizes how Zen practice and koan study must make sense in our modern day living situation which is right on as far as I’m concerned. 

There's a lot of talk about how having a Zen teacher at a distance is somehow less than legitimate or "not really Zen" but based on my direct experience I can say with 100% absolute certainty that having a teacher that resonates with your heart and teaches you well is all that matters, regardless of how geographically close you live to him or her.
During a retreat almost two weeks ago I met the other ordained Five Mountain clergy and was extremely impressed with their sincerity, openness, kindness, and intelligence. I couldn’t have asked for a better group of people to call my extended sangha.
On January 28, 2012 I had the good fortune to be ordained as a Zen priest with the Five Mountain Zen Order at the Zen Center of Las Vegas along with my new dharma brothers Do Myong Sunim and Doshim Sunim (check out his blog here), both of who live relatively close to me here in Manhattan. I look forward to knowing them both better and finding a way to eventually work together and help people however we can.  I was given the dharma name Dō'an which means "clear eyes."

You can see more photos from ordination day here.